In case you missed the first two parts, here’s the link to my Anxiety Page containing the links to each post.
There’s a song on my race playlist that reminds me of what anxiety feels like. If you have anxiety issues, you’ll laugh at how true this is and if you don’t have anxiety issues then maybe the song will give you some empathy for people who do.
But let me clarify before I post the video here. Anxiety is NORMAL. But when it lasts longer than Hugh Heffner and interferes with basic life things like eating, sleeping, working, having fun etc then it’s a problem. People with anxiety disorders feel like this all. day. long.
I know, right? Ha ha! So true. And then people tell us to relax, to have a bath, to use some essential oils. It’s 3:23am, the entire house is asleep and so is everybody else in the whole wide world. We haven’t eaten a proper meal in 4 days but we can’t feel our hunger past the cortisol pulsing through our veins. Our feet and hands are cold and clammy and there’s a trace of cold sweat along our hairline and between our boobs (if we have boobs).
Did I nail it or what?
But sure. Let’s put on Enya and light some incense and ask Jesus to take it away.
No. Been there, memorized entire scriptures and recited them through tears night after night, year after year, and Jesus didn’t take my anxiety away.
I like Jesus. I’m not holding it against him at all. Because if he took it away, then I wouldn’t be able to help anyone reading this right now. However, I’m still a little hung up on the fact that he doesn’t regularly turn water into wine. I’m not a huge fan of fish, or I’d ask for a double helping of loaves and fishes. But anxiety? I’ve given up.
But I think that’s what we’re supposed to do. Give up. I don’t mean find the nearest bridge over dirty sea water, I’m talking like, let it go. Let it in. The more I fight anxiety, the worse it gets. It’s like trying to rescue someone who is drowning–the fight itself can be their demise.
Anxiety isn’t going to go away, rather, it’s something that we can manage. There will be good days and bad days but overall, we’ll get there. I can’t emphasize this enough though: don’t do it alone. If you’ve hurt somebody, make it right. If you need somebody, let them know. Don’t isolate yourself out of fear, for anxiety will grow bigger in the soil of avoidance. Reach out.
And when we get there, we’ll get there together. Jesus just better be waiting there for us with some wine.