So, I did the stupidest thing ever.
Last Tuesday was the first day of school, and as I sat in the high school parking lot waiting for Jake to come out of class, Wendy (Andrew’s ex) pulled up beside me. I waved hello but she ignored me, drove around and then left.
I was like, what? I thought we were past all of this! I ended up phoning her and leaving a voicemail saying that I really want us to be able to say hi to each other, not just for our kids but for us, because we need peace too. And I also told her that I want to make right whatever I did to make her hate me so much.
Well, Wendy phoned Andrew freaking out because she claimed that she was at work the whole time, and that Suzy is freaking crazy.
So now I’m thinking, not only does she hate my guts but now she’s outright lying about even seeing me. I couldn’t believe it. I couldn’t for the life of me figure out how we were going to spend the next whatever number of years seeing each other all the time when it is this bad.
Until Andrew and I drove to the school to pick up the youngest two and drove behind a car that is the exact same make, year, and colour as Wendy’s and even has the exact same last three letters on the plates. And was Wendy driving it? No. Somebody else was, and that somebody happened to have straight brown hair and glasses and looked exactly like her.
So, pretty much, I’m a spaz.
I don’t blame Wendy one bit.
I don’t like leaving things unsettled. Do any of you have unresolved issues with people close to you? What about from the past? What pops into your mind?
I wrote out a letter to my first boyfriend Gabe and read it out to my therapist. I needed to forgive him and it was so hard to let it go. I also hurt a few people along the way in my 37 years of life and I wish I could erase the pain. Forgiveness is a gift not just for the wicked, but for the weary.
Did you guys watch Sex and the City?
I never did. I was too obsessed with Chris Farley movies.