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Postpartum Running: Week One

Hey guys! You can’t get rid of me yet! Jesse was born on Tuesday, and by Sunday I was itching to get moving for two reasons 1) My milk came in and I’m some sort of hyper-lactating mama with approximately 7235287368962 times the normal amount of hormones needed for milk production and so my anxiety went through the roof and I needed to run out the insanity and 2) Along with my enormously engorged milk jugs came 8 lb of water retention and I needed to sweat out the suffocating bloat.

On the morning of Jesse’s birth, I weighed 141lb, putting me at about a 18-21lb weight gain from start to finish. When we came home from the hospital on Wednesday, I stepped on the scale at 130lb, so I lost about 10lb during delivery. My milk started coming in on Thursday, peaked on Friday and Saturday and began settling down (barely) on Sunday and Monday. I get suuuuuper engorged. I’m talking like, extreme. You know how you Google things like heat rash and infected finger and up pops up the most grotesque photos of all time? My boobs would be in that lineup. I can’t complain because my milk is a plenty, but I’m susceptible to mastitis and stuff so I have to stay on it like white on rice. I always gain a bunch of water weight in the days following delivery. I went from 130lb on Wednesday to 138lb on Friday, and back down to 133lb on Sunday, and my body will just start sweating it out as the days go by.

I tell you guys all this because everyone thinks they’re going to drop a bunch of weight right after the baby pops out and although some do, for sure, some don’t. There’s no need for panic, I promise. Just trust your good ol’ friend Suzy to assure you that your body will do its thing for your baby and when your brain decides that the baby is taken care of, then your body will chillax. It just takes time.

In the meantime, your emotions and psychological well-being will indeed be in the shitter. Welcome to hell.

However.

There are a lot of us here, and it’s important for us to stick together because community and connection overpower the isolation needed for anxiety to thrive. You get me?

I’m struggling. During the day I’m okay but it’s at night, when I’m alone with the baby and he’s gassy and crying and everyone else is asleep, and my nipples are bleeding onto his cute little onesie, that my thoughts take a downward spiral. I think all sorts of crazy things like how my water retention is really an incoming postpartum heart attack, the silent killer that will get me while I’m sitting on the toilet. Or how the little knot near where my IV entrance was is really a blood clot that will go straight to my brain. My heart rate is legit picking up as I write this out right now. I think about nighttime and want to drive myself to the hospital and check myself in to the ER, or any ward, actually. I’m not picky.

I have a doctor appointment on Wednesday so she will help me then, which is great. And I’ve been through this whole anxiety things a zillion times; this is most definitely not my first rodeo. Postpartum hormones are no joke.

I just realized that I deviated from my first paragraph! Whoops! Okay so I was itching to get moving because running helps me stay sane, so on Sunday (5 days postpartum) Andrew and I went for a walk with the two littles (Callum in the stroller and Jesse in my K’Tan carrier that is too small right now because of my enormously engorged breasts). We walked up to the liquor store and bought our much anticipated Coronas, a bottle of red and a bottle of rosé and then realized we could barely fit it all in the stroller. HA! #parentsoftheyear

I felt so good on that walk (about a mile) that I came home and walked another mile on the treadmill. It felt SO DAMN GOOD TO SWEAT that I decided to pick up the pace a little and run 2 miles. I felt great! Totally fine. So the next day, the Monday (yesterday, I guess), I ran 5 miles on the treadmill and again, sweated out the angst. HALLELUJAH. I wanted to walk around our townhouse complex ringing doorbells and high-fiving our neighbors and their pets.

Okay so I should probably wrap this up. Jesse does one 5 hour stretch between feeds at night which is awesome. We’re having a heat wave (and more forest fire smoke) so we’re pretty uncomfortable without air conditioning (highs of 98F) but there should only be one more day of this and then we’re back to comfortable temps. Jesse is handling the heat by breastfeeding like a champ, all day long about every 2 hours. He has lots of wet and poopy diapers and has already outgrown his newborn size diapers! These next few weeks are going to go SO fast.

He’s fairly calm, unless he’s got a burp, and he really enjoys just sitting in our arms, looking up and around at everything. He stays awake for about 45 min and then goes down for his nap pretty easily! The Fisher Price Rock n Play has been a huge lifesaver, FYI. I wish I had it for my other four kids. It is EVERYTHING. I highly recommend.

I’m hoping to get in another 5 miler today! I’m so thankful that I’m able to do this because it’s really helping me with my anxiety!

Do you own Birkenstocks?

I LIVE IN MINE.

Red, white, or rosé?

I need dinner ideas to make in this heat. We had hot dogs last night, and chicken salad wraps are on tap for tonight. What do you guys like making for dinner when it’s hot AF?

 

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  • Meredith @ the cookie chrunicles September 5, 2017, 10:17 am

    If my glittered style of birkenstocks count, then I have them. :). I felt a ping in my heart for those middle of night feelings. While I’ve never suffered from anxiety, I can tell you that those first 3 weeks of my sons life were the hardest on me during those night time hours where he cried the whole time, my husband was sleeping, and it was up to me to get through it. Nursing was hard during those weeks and didn’t make the kid quiet and I’m pretty sure I wanted to jump out the window. I’m surprised I didn’t. Lol

  • jade September 5, 2017, 11:10 am

    I clearly remember that first week when your breasts are so engorged that they are hard as rocks. When baby latches on and the let-down tingly thing happens…it feels so good and is such a relief. That stroller pic is hilarious and Jesse is so beautiful!

  • Laura @ This Runner's Recipes September 5, 2017, 11:20 am

    I live in Birkenstocks also! I was thinking about you when I saw the forecast today and all the haze outside – I hope you are all doing okay through this. I’m so glad that Jesse is sleeping well!

  • Jen September 5, 2017, 11:50 am

    Yes birks – I love them. Red. And you know I know exactly what you are dealing with. I’m glad you’ll see your doctor tomorrow bc post partum is for sure no joke.

  • Kimberly September 5, 2017, 12:07 pm

    Oh man, I wish I could give you a big hug right now! I remember those first few weeks when my three daughters were babies. With my first one I felt like I was in prison- no freedom at all. Roller coaster of emotions that seemed never ending. But now that my last baby is nineteen GULP I look on those days with fondness. I would give anything to smell their sweet baby breath just one more time. You got this!

  • Amy Lauren September 5, 2017, 12:54 pm

    Finally something I can help with- dinners when it’s hot! Because it is always hot in South Carolina. I eat a lot of wraps… we grill a lot (salmon, shrimp for me)… sauteed veggies like squash and zucchini are great too. Besides that, I like those little clementine/mandarin oranges straight from the fridge or maybe even 10-15 minutes in the freezer after peeling them. They taste really refreshing. Smoothies are also good- I freeze leftover bananas, then blend them into protein shakes to give it a milkshake like consistency.

    I love that your first walk as a family was to the liquor store. You have the right priorities. I can see that happening with us as well but our liquor store is only about a mile away, thankfully. Glad you are feeling better and already up and moving around again and doing some running! Don’t rush back into it but after so many pregnancies and years of running, you definitely know your body well.

  • San September 5, 2017, 3:03 pm

    You’re a crazy-woman that you’re running again… but I know you crave it, so… do what you need to do 🙂

    Jesse is precious.

    Oh, and I have two pairs of Birks and I LOVE THEM to the moon and back.

  • Lisa @ Mile by Mile September 5, 2017, 4:29 pm

    I got a pair of Birkenstocks this year and I love them! I want to get other styles I just wish they weren’t so expensive. I cant believe you are already back to running but thats awesome! Im so glad its helping with your anxiety!

  • Meghan@CleanEatsFastFeets September 5, 2017, 4:43 pm

    I like ordering take out when it’s hot. Or seriously, a huge salad or snack plate piled high with veggies, hummus, pesto and cheese.

    Jesse is adorable the rock n play was everything. In fact, it was the only thing we could get Ave to sleep in during the day. Also five hours stretches at night….you go Jesse! That’s awesome.

  • Wendy@Taking the Long Way Home September 5, 2017, 5:11 pm

    I’ve given up red because my menopausal hormone fluctuations get worse with red. Chardonnay and me are now BFFs. Altho Rose is making some inroads.

    That baby is so damn cute! And he sleeps 5 hours at night? What a gift. Hang in there.

  • Susie @ Suzlyfe September 6, 2017, 4:44 am

    I have target knock off birks. I used to have 2 pairs of the real things (one was the comfort version, which had gel in the insoles) when Mom was paying for things 😀
    That nugget is so cute. You’ll be running before you know it 😀

  • Gretchen September 6, 2017, 5:07 am

    It’s really interesting and eye opening to me to hear about the bad/ugly side of early motherhood. I feel like when people online are “being real” about it, it’s just “ah my baby keeps me up all night and I cry at weird times”, but you don’t hear the REAL things like bloody nipples and crazy anxiety. I love the fact that you don’t shy away from saying things like that and give an honest picture of what life is like without any fear of going too far or killing the illusion of perfection.

    Also- for dinner ideas, I usually make a big pot of rice at the beginning of the week, chop up a ton of veggies, and just mix it together with some beans (or shredded chicken will be good for you). You can eat it like that with some cilantro or spinach, or add it to a burrito with some salsa and sour cream!

  • Allison September 6, 2017, 6:22 am

    I’m trying to get back into the swing of blogging and of course yours is one of the first I came back to – had every intention of wishing you congrats on your beautiful new baby (stalked your whole pregnancy on instagram and loved it!) but then got distracted by your Birkenstocks comment. I just bought my second pair – my old pair was like 5 years old and I got the Daytona Birkenstock and I’m obsessed with those too 🙂

    Anyway, huge congrats on the new little babes! He is precious. I am sorry you are dealing with all of the postpartum feels right now and I’m thinking of you!!

  • Jenny September 6, 2017, 6:35 am

    AHHHH! He is so precious and beautiful!!! Weirdly, I absolutely LOVED the newborn phase. It was like my hormones went in the opposite direction and I had “postpartum euphoria” or something. I miss those days! Anyway, so glad you’re able to run and sweat out the anxiety- all those pregnant miles you put in are paying off big time. Congratulations!!!

  • Crissy September 6, 2017, 7:54 am

    CONGRATULATIONS!! He is adorable!! And major kudos to you for already getting back to running!

    Birkenstocks – Sorry but nope! lol They are no doubt comfortable, I just could never get on that trend and felt they looked funny on my feet, but I do live in flip flops on the weekends since I have to wear dress shoes/heels for work, which the flip flop tans look great in haha

    Red, White, or Rose – Yes please! If I had to choose, it would be white. There’s nothing like sitting down with a nice cold glass of white wine at the end of long day and/or on a beautiful afternoon. I do like red here and there, but still prefer it cold, and rose just kinda fits in whenever!

    Dinners – Since you have quite the crowd to feed I’m thinking in terms of what makes a lot so:
    Tacos! They are quick and easy and take minimal time on the stove to cook the meat, warm up some beans, and make rice as the store bought tortillas can just be warmed in the microwave.
    Spaghetti! Plus side on spaghetti is there are always leftovers so you can probably get two meals out of this one. I also make this in the crock pot, which is much easier and doesn’t heat the house, which is also my third suggestion….
    Crock pot meals! I know it sounds crazy to want to use the crock pot when it’s hot AF, but there are so many things you can make in it, plus it takes minimal time to prepare (just put it all in and turn it on) and won’t turn the house into an sauna.

    Hope those help, and congratulations again on the new addition! Keep on rocking you rock star! 🙂 🙂

  • Una September 12, 2017, 2:09 pm

    No Birks. I know that they’re really good for your feet and all, but they’re just not cute.

    I live in my Haviana flip flops, though. I have flat feet naturally, so the lack of arch support doesn’t bother me.

    Red, white or rosé…? Is that a real question? Yes. Yes. Yes.

    Grilling helps, so does Crock-Pot meals. I also like anything made in a frying pan. My MIL cooked off ham steaks with peaches in a pan last night, with steamed broccoli. Sooooo good and cooked up super fast.

    • suzy.suzyheather@gmail.com September 13, 2017, 6:00 pm

      Oh! Ham and peaches sound really good!

      If you have flat feet, you need arch support more than ever, silly girl.

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