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Postpartum Running: Week Two

I haven’t had time to read blogs lately! Actually, to be honest, I can read them but I can’t comment on them–it’s too hard to comment on my phone. I’ve been on Instagram a LOT though, especially in the middle of the night. I have no idea how I survived my first three kids’ newborn phases without social media! It helps so much to stay connected to people, as dumb as that sounds, because when we’re up in the night with a fussy newborn it can feel so isolating and just being able to text another mom who is up with their baby is just such a gift. I love how all of our messages to each other are filled with typos from trying to text with one hand while nursing our babies. Ha! But I’m also loving staying connected to my other friends too, who aren’t in the throes of babyhood because HEY! I’m more than just a mommy! And I love hearing about what everyone else is up to, and what they’re excited about, or what they’re struggling with so that I can reach out and help them if they need it too. We’re all in this together!

I’m feeling so good! When my milk came in last week, I really REALLY struggled with anxiety and mood and emotions and ALL THE THINGS. It was really, really awful. When this happened after I delivered my first baby (17 years ago), the hormone fluctuation sent me into a tailspin. But now that I’m able to be self aware of what’s going on (I had NO idea how hormonal the postpartum phase was–I was only 22!) and proactive (I talked to my GP about my anxiety at Jesse’s one week check-up), I was/am able to manage it WAY better this time. It also really helps that I was able to return to running again so soon. If you’re interested in my specific mileage, head on over to my Mileage Monday post here.

My breast engorgement settled down, my hormones leveled out and my anxiety went down to a loud whisper. Whew!

I’ve been having those weird postpartum night sweats which feel gross in the moment but feel good after a shower. My weight dropped fast after the initial post-delivery gain (water retention when my milk came in) so I went from 138lb to 133lb last week, and now I’m 129lb. It will go down much slower now, but I’m not worried about that–I’m too excited about what my body is doing/has done! I can fit into my K’Tan baby carrier (my boobs were too big last week to wear it properly) and Jesse loves it.

This is my view of him while I carry him around (his left eye was swollen shut from being born so it’s always the last one to open!)

Andrew and I sat together one night and just reminisced about the whole birth day of Jesse and how amazing it was. And then I just shook my head and thought about everything my body has been through! About 13 marathons, 2 ultras, 5 children, 80-100 mile weeks, like WHAAAAT?! My body has served me well and I’m never going to take its capabilities for granted. Nope. Each and every day I will love it because I know how fragile life is.

Jesse is doing great! He’s back up to and past his birth weight and he’s becoming more alert each day. He sleeps a LOT. Well, actually, at first he liked to party each night between midnight and 3am so I was dying a slow and painful death but then a couple nights in a row he only woke up twice between 8pm and 8am! The first time was at midnight and he went right back to sleep after I fed him (and had a burp) but then when he got up at 4, it took me over an hour to get him back to sleep again. BUT… I’m getting 7-8 hours of sleep now, even though it’s broken up. Last night was brutal–he woke up every 2 hours and he was fussy and difficult to put back down but hey–you win some and you lose some.

Another thing I should add is that Callum had colic. Katie did too, but Callum’s was off the effing CHARTS. It was traumatizing, and so I feel myself panicking a bit about whether Jesse will have it or not. I can’t count how many times I’ve Googled “when does colic start” and then nervously checked the calendar. I don’t think he will get it, but you never know. And I wanted to be honest with you guys and just get that out there, that I’m definitely worried about it.

Jesse so sweet. It’s amazing to me how it feels like he’s always been here, that I’ve always known him. I knew from having my first four that this is what would happen when I had him, but it’s still mind-blowing amazing each and every time. I can’t believe how our hearts just get bigger to accommodate more people to love. Callum is so good with him. It’s definitely tougher to get out the door with the both of them but I do it, knowing that a) a little crying never hurt anyone and b) there’s a box of red wine on the counter once they go to bed. Ha!

I hear my little squeaker (Andrew called him that in the hospital because he doesn’t really cry–he squeaks) waking up from his nap now, so off I go! OH and it also blows me away that I am his only source of food! I AM KEEPING ANOTHER HUMAN ALIVE! That totally freaks me out. But man, what an honour. What a gift. So humbling, and I am so thankful.

Here he is with both eyes open! His skin is peeling. I keep putting Burt’s Bees baby oil on him and it’s slowly getting better.

Mamas with babies… did any of yours have colic? Did you have colic when you were a baby? Do you know anyone who did or had a baby with colic?

Favourite remedy for dry skin?

 

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  • Una September 12, 2017, 2:13 pm

    Being able to breastfeed Olivia was amazing. It’s wild to think that my clumsy, flawed, imperfect body could create such an incredible tiny human AND know exactly what to make to feed her.

    Brad’s older sister was a colicky baby, but instead of crying, she screamed. My sweet, gentle MIL said that she almost pitched the baby out the kitchen window a few times.

    • suzy.suzyheather@gmail.com September 13, 2017, 5:59 pm

      Yup. I totally understand. Colic makes us think/do/say crazy ass things.

  • Amy Lauren September 12, 2017, 2:31 pm

    It looks like Jesse is smiling really big in that first picture of you “wearing” him in the baby carrier/sling. It’s a cute pic (well they all are, but you know). Glad he is back up past his birth weight and that you are recovering well and getting some miles in, too.

    • suzy.suzyheather@gmail.com September 13, 2017, 5:59 pm

      Thanks Amy. He’s grimacing in that pic but we can pretend it’s a smile. HA!!!

  • Kimberly September 12, 2017, 4:29 pm

    Jesse is so cute! You look absolutely radiant. Motherhood suits you. My first daughter had colic for four long months. I had never felt so helpless before. My emotions were all over the place. But, we survived 😀

    • suzy.suzyheather@gmail.com September 13, 2017, 5:58 pm

      Thanks, Kimberly! Doesn’t it feel like colic will never end? It was UNREAL. But you’re right–it passed, and we survived.

  • Helly September 12, 2017, 5:04 pm

    You are such a mom! A fucking badass mom.

    • suzy.suzyheather@gmail.com September 13, 2017, 5:57 pm

      Ah-rooooooo!!!

  • Wendy@Taking the Long Way Home September 12, 2017, 5:27 pm

    I wish I was your baby’s nurse practitioner! I would love on him as much as possible. And by the way, for colic, I put my babies on probiotics. In the US there’s one for breastfed babies by BioGaia. Gerber also sells it too. 5 drops once/day.

    • suzy.suzyheather@gmail.com September 13, 2017, 5:57 pm

      I put the probiotics on hold and Andrew is picking them up tomorrow! You’re the best! Thank you!

  • Katherine September 12, 2017, 5:40 pm

    Love that pic of him in the carrier! So sweet!

    None of my four had colic. But my oldest niece did. I remember vacationing with my whole family and my niece (sister’s baby) and nephew (brother’s baby) were roughly the same age. My niece just cried and screamed and cried. All the time. My nephew fussed at nap time or whatever. It was truly mind-boggling. Of course we all tried suggestions we had heard and took turns walking her around but it was unreal– she really truly could not stop crying, once she started. Thankfully (mercifully) she was a great sleeper. It was all crying, all the time for four months and then her crying just stopped- rather, it went to normal amounts of crying.

    Ever since then, when friends have babies who fuss at bedtime and they say they think the baby has colic I am always thinking “you have no freaking idea”. It was very eye opening.

    • suzy.suzyheather@gmail.com September 13, 2017, 5:57 pm

      YES. Yes yes yes. See, once you experience a baby with true colic, you just get it. It’s life-changing. If a marriage can survive a baby with colic, they can survive putting together Ikea furniture.

  • Allie Capo-Burdick September 13, 2017, 3:12 am

    Oh honey you sound SO happy and of course you are – look at that munchkin!!! So super sweet!! And I think I was spared colic since I had two at once. It’s the little things. xoxo

    • suzy.suzyheather@gmail.com September 13, 2017, 5:55 pm

      That’s actually very true! I don’t think I know anyone who had twins that had one or both of them with colic. Can you imagine? IMAGINE?!?!?!

  • Gretchen September 13, 2017, 4:09 am

    It truly is amazing that you’re keeping another human alive, and also insane that you grew him inside of you. So crazy!! It’s so weird to me that babies are so dependent on their mom (and dad) for such a long time, while you see wild animals have to get up on their own after being in the world for a few minutes. Such a huge difference!

    I like Aveeno cream for dry skin. I have eczema and it’s the only thing that helps!

    • suzy.suzyheather@gmail.com September 13, 2017, 5:55 pm

      YES! I bought this amazing Aveeno cream for babies with eczema and it’s SO GOOD.

      Why do our kids ACT like animals but they’re not independent like them right off the bat? Hmmm… I really want to be a giraffe. Or a horse. Although… horse penises are menacing.

  • Susie @ Suzlyfe September 13, 2017, 5:34 am

    I’ve said it before (maybe every day? Who is to say) and I’ll say it again: you are a fucking rockstar. And Jesse is just the cutest and sweetest. I’m so glad that you’ve been able to run and feel AMAZING

    • suzy.suzyheather@gmail.com September 13, 2017, 5:53 pm

      Thanks Susie Q!

  • Marina @ Happy Healing September 13, 2017, 6:21 am

    OMG Jessie is so cute!! I was on vaca when you had him, so I didn’t get a chance to say congrats!!

    • suzy.suzyheather@gmail.com September 13, 2017, 5:53 pm

      Oh THANK YOU Marina!!!!! I hope you had a good vacation!

  • Heather @ HeatherRunsFast.com September 13, 2017, 7:45 am

    Our bodies truly are amazing! Breastfeeding is just so awesome and hard and annoying and frustrating and awesome. Kara never had colic but there were a few times I thought she might… it was actually just me being overly tired and emotional and needing “a reason” for her crying. I really hope he doesn’t get it! Box wine- love it!

    • Heather @ HeatherRunsFast.com September 13, 2017, 7:46 am

      I forgot to add… Social media was a life saver to keep me awake during middle of the night feedings. I’d read blogs, scroll FB and IG, anything to keep my eyes open!

      • suzy.suzyheather@gmail.com September 13, 2017, 5:52 pm

        YES!!!! Super super SUPER thankful for smart phones for my last 2 babies!!! How did I ever survive the first 3?!?!?! I don’t even know! I don’t even remember… ha ha ha

    • suzy.suzyheather@gmail.com September 13, 2017, 5:53 pm

      Yeah– makes a lot of sense. Sleep deprivation is no joke. It’s like putting on a pair of glasses with lenses that see everything super dark and dismal. It’s brutal.

  • Ana September 13, 2017, 8:26 am

    AWw! he is so precious!! and so little!

    Oh yes, all the changes post partum are a pain!! I hate the neck sweats! followed by intense chills.

    My niece has colic, and it has been a test of patience and sanity. She is happiest on a football hold, with her facing the floor and constantly moving. She woke me up at 4 am last Saturday.

    • suzy.suzyheather@gmail.com September 13, 2017, 5:51 pm

      YES. Your niece sounds verrrrrry familiar. Sigh…

  • Meghan@CleanEatsFastFeets September 13, 2017, 9:09 am

    The picture of Jesse all snuggled into the wrap is my favorite. He looks so happy in it, like he’s smiling already.

    I’m not sure if Ave was colicky but she cried an awful lot in the first three months and she slept for shit, except at night. Honestly in hindsight I think she was hungry all the damn time. I started feeding her every time she cried (even if she just finished nursing) and it actually seemed to work. It’s not surprising considering how much she likes to eat and nurse now.

    Also, I can’t believe our boob keep another human alive as well. You’re right; it’s amazing.

    • suzy.suzyheather@gmail.com September 13, 2017, 5:50 pm

      Jesse was doing the gingerbread man, actually, and his smile is a grimace but overall he likes it–just not in that exact moment.

      My experience is if you’re not sure if your child is/was colicky, then they aren’t/weren’t colicky. Colic exists in hell, and anyone who has a colicky kid gets burned. Bad.

  • Laura @ This Runner's Recipes September 13, 2017, 8:33 pm

    Oh Jesse is so adorable – I love that photo of him so happy in his wrap! And you look amazing.
    Breastfeeding boggles my mind/amazes me – another person stays alive through only that! I can’t even wrap my mind around it sometimes.

  • Lisa @ Mile by Mile September 14, 2017, 1:58 am

    Jesse is so sweet and you sound so happy! Im glad you were able to jump back into running so quickly- Im sure that is helping you a lot!

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