Anxiety. This is pretty much how I’d sum up my week. I guess it’s normal to feel anxious at the end of pregnancy but I kinda hate it. My heart does this thing where it pounds in my chest and then stalls for a bit, catches up and then makes me feel all dizzy and weird. I’m jumping out of my skin at every single sound, and my imagination is betraying me with all sorts of scenarios involving, well…death and destruction. Pretty much. Just being honest. It’s fun to be me. I super love anxiety. Yay.
Our province is in a state of emergency (real, not perceived) because of wildfires, and our region is getting choked out by smoke because of the combination of the wind shift, the extreme temperatures and the lack of rain. Where we can usually see the farmlands, the mountain range and Mt Baker jutting out into the blue sky, all we can see from our usual vantage point at our favourite park is a smoky haze.
This past week we’ve had a couple of days where we have been advised to not go outside because of such poor air quality. I’m scared of having a baby in this shit. Seriously. He needs to stay in my belly and ride on the coattails of my big girl body’s filtration system until this smoke disappears.
Despite my desire to curl up into the fetal position myself, I fought off the bad thoughts and pushed through and had a pretty active week. Andrew and I took Callum down to Whidbey Island to see if we could escape the smoke but we couldn’t, but we still had a good time. We stopped at El Nopal on our way back, which is key to our survival, although, I can’t drink their margaritas which makes me so incredibly sad. Let’s bow our heads together and remember the good ol’ days, and the tequila-drenched days to come.
I got to run with Lora (Callum came along, which was fine–he loves her), and I was able to get most of my runs in while it was still super early before the air quality got really bad. I took Callum to my sister Tracey’s house and her twins played with and entertained Callum for hours! We had such a good time. I’m so thankful for their family! I was also able to visit my friend Christy, someone who has been near and dear to me since we were both about 5 years old. She just came back from having thyroid surgery in Quebec and she and her five kids showed Callum and I a good time. I’m so grateful to have a friend that feels like family, you know? Someone who knows me since childhood, who can read me like a book and knows exactly what I’m thinking before I even say it.
I also spent the week finishing up my to-do list before the baby comes. Just little things, here and there, that add up. I would still like to type up a couple of posts before the baby comes but right now I’m being very careful with my time and energy; I don’t want to completely wear myself out, and I need time to just be still before the big D day comes.
Callum and I drove out to my sister Tracey’s house to hang out with her family, and we had so much fun! Plus, there isn’t as much smoke out their way. Tracey’s twins played with Callum and he seriously felt like the king of the world over there.
On Sunday I got up and had coffee instead of a run because I had been up most of the night with anxiety. Lame. But my run later on was awesome, so it all worked out. Then I got to hang out with Jake for the afternoon–we grabbed some smoothies and went consignment clothes shopping. I love doing stuff like that!
I think that’s about it for the week. Thanks to my buddy Meghan from Clean Eats Fast Feets for hosting this week’s Week in Review! She’s a keeper!
Margaritas—blended or on the rocks?
Do you like consignment clothes shopping or does that gross you out?
Do you get claustrophobic?