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Woozy Wednesday: Tyrannosaurus Wrecks

STUPID ANXIETY AGAIN.

When the dinosaurs of stress roam the earth, eat my young, steal my foliage and clip my wings with their claws, I’m all “Oh hey, no problem, I’ve got this.” I run faster, I survive on 600 calories per day of Toblerone and Corona, and I stitch my children back together with my teeth.

Then? The dinosaurs go as fast as they arrive, leaving in their wake a stillness, a warm breeze, an exhale. And that’s when the real monster shows up donning bitch face, an extremely rapid resting heart rate and an incurable disease diagnosed by Google.

Me.

My anxiety feeds on post-crisis peace like a fucking T-Rex on a bunny. Okay well, the T-Rex isn’t, you know, the bunny. Just eating it. Am I still typing?

The good part in all of this is that I am self-aware, and self-awareness is THE KEY to self-management. You can’t manage a bum rash if you’re not itchy. And no, that is not what I Googled; I am dying of something else entirely. But at least I know that once the crisis passes, anxiety will peak and so I can line up my tools in preparation.

Tools:

-My sisters (I phone and text them)

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-People (Susie saved my life this morning) I know who deal with anxiety (I just text them, because most people with anxiety don’t like phone calls LOL)

-Running shoes

-Razor, tweezers, magnifying mirror (because picking, squeezing, plucking gives me a sense of control)

-Hugs

-Andrew’s penis (sex totally helps)

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-My MacBook (writing it all out helps too)

-Music

-Corona, red wine, vodka and Coke Zero (just to seal the deal on the deadly disease)

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-Chris Farley movies

And if shit really gets bad:

-Family doctor (I love her… it’s SO important to have a good relationship with your GP)

-Therapist

-Meds (short term like Ativan or long term like Cipralex)

So? What would you guys add to the list?

If you were a dinosaur, which one would you be?

The flying ones totally freak me out.

 

{ 18 comments… add one }
  • Helly May 10, 2016, 9:48 pm

    I’m a typed message away if you need me. Love you ♡

    • suzy.suzyheather@gmail.com May 11, 2016, 8:09 am

      Thank you Helly. Love you back <3

  • Lisa @ Running Out Of Wine May 11, 2016, 2:14 am

    Sorry you are dealing with this right now, but I am so glad you have so many ways to cope and so many people to help you through it! I am also here if you ever need anything.
    I saw Jurassic World for the first time a few weeks ago and all those dinosaurs totally freaked me out, especially the flying ones.

    • suzy.suzyheather@gmail.com May 11, 2016, 8:08 am

      Oh, totally the flying ones. You know that scene from Modern Family where a pigeon gets stuck in the house? That’s my worst nightmare. Blow it up to the size of a dino and I’d rather just have a T-Rex have at me.

  • Allie May 11, 2016, 2:55 am

    As a fellow anxiety sufferer, it always makes me laugh when, the first thing I always read about treating it is “exercise!” And I’m like – dude I cannot exercise any more than I already do and this shit is not going away!!! LOL!! But really – the support team you have in place is what truly works and no – no phone calls ever!!!

    • suzy.suzyheather@gmail.com May 11, 2016, 8:07 am

      Ikr?! But imagine what we’d be like if we DIDN’T exercise? Yikes, bikes.

  • Susie @ Suzlyfe May 11, 2016, 3:53 am

    Always here. And very honored to be amongst such esteemed company as Andrew’s penis.

    • suzy.suzyheather@gmail.com May 11, 2016, 8:07 am

      I literally laughed out loud at that comment. SO FUNNY.

  • Megan @ Meg Go Run May 11, 2016, 5:29 am

    It sounds like you have LOTS of tools, which I am glad for. 🙂 That list pretty much covers everything so I don’t know what else to add.

    • suzy.suzyheather@gmail.com May 11, 2016, 8:07 am

      Sigh… I’m just really looking forward to it passing. It’s such an energy-suck.

  • Allison Fiorini May 11, 2016, 7:14 am

    Awwwwww, I am sorry you are going through a tough time with your anxiety. That sucks. You really have an awesome list of tools to help you get through it, but I can’t imagine how emotionally draining it all is. Ugh. Thinking of you. xo

    I think I’d be a velociraptor. They run fast and are pretty freaking badass. So okay, maybe I’d want to be a velociraptor but I’d actually be something like a stegosaurus. They supposedly had a brain the size of a walnut. Hahaha!

    • suzy.suzyheather@gmail.com May 11, 2016, 8:06 am

      I need to look up the velociraptor. Even the name is badass, although at first I read it as “velo crapper” which would be like, way more appropriate.

  • Laura @ This Runner's Recipes May 11, 2016, 9:00 am

    I’m so sorry to hear you’re having a rough time with your anxiety. You have an amazing support system but it still must be mentally hard. Sending hugs and prayers your way!
    I’d be a T-rex: big legs, little bent arms (my sister actually calls me Trex arms), big appetite, and sometimes I don’t notice things like Charlie if they’re very still.

    • suzy.suzyheather@gmail.com May 11, 2016, 12:12 pm

      HA HA HA HA! What a mean sister. 😛

  • Caroline May 11, 2016, 1:34 pm

    Ugh anxiety is actually the worst. I am so sorry that you’re dealing with it, but I’m glad you have your support system and tools lined up.
    I love dinosaurs. If I were a dinosaur, I’d be a compsognathus. They’re super tiny and their name comes from the Greek word for dainty but they’re also carnivorous so they were super fierce 🙂 So basically me.

    • suzy.suzyheather@gmail.com May 11, 2016, 4:59 pm

      I say we be twin compsognathuses and take over the world!!!!

  • Meghan@CleanEatsFastFeets May 15, 2016, 6:21 am

    Coping mechanisms along with recognition are EVERYTHING when it comes to treating anxiety. We’ve recently had to utilize a few of our own, so you are not alone. I’m always here when you need me. In the meantime, I’ll send some Oscar pictures. Also, he tried to climb on the baby yesterday when they were both in my lap. In his defense, she was in this giant sleep slack and you couldn’t tell where she started or ended and I think he thought she was a giant pillow. 🙂

    • suzy.suzyheather@gmail.com May 15, 2016, 1:57 pm

      I saw the pics and he’s SO CUUUUUUTE I LOVE HIM.

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